I’m feeling everything lately.
I’m frustrated that our world is bubbling over with bad news on a daily basis.
I’m as confused as I’ve ever been about the future.
I feel resentment towards those not taking COVID seriously while Mark & I have made drastic changes in our life to not contribute to the spread.
I’m sad that Mark is no longer doing the thing he loves.
I’m doubtful that things are going to get better anytime soon.
I’m worried that my career is going to take a huge hit as we enter in to a recession.
I’m scared that someone I love is going to get sick.
I feel guilty for my privilege, for complaining about ANYTHING when I have it so well and for knowingly sticking my head in the sand some days because it’s all gotten so overwhelming.
I’m tired, I’m frustrated, and most of all…I’m lost.
And yet I could flip the script and go on and on about everything I’m profoundly grateful for.
The point is that it’s okay to be feeling it all. It’s just where we’re at. My 365 project gives me a reason to pick up my camera every single day and look for something worth saving in the form of a photograph. Posting that photo and writing alongside it here, everyday, gives me a reason to put something positive out in to the world. As much as I love that daily exercise, today is one of those days that I can’t, in good conscious, act as though life is just peachy. Most days my emotions travel the spectrum from happy to sad to overwhelmed to calm and everything in between. No matter what I’m feeling, I keep trying to remind myself that it’s okay. It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to laugh. It’s okay to not know what to do. We’re living through a time unlike any other. We’re all being tested in a myriad of ways.
I think one of the best things we could possibly do right now to ease the pain and the struggle of it all is to be honest with ourselves and those around us, and most of all, stop beating ourselves up. We’re all doing the best we can to navigate these murky waters. Be grateful for all that is good in your life. Seek patience and compassion towards everything else. When all else fails…get outside, get your heart rate up and break a sweat. I’ve found this to be a profoundly effective way of achieving peace of mind.
